Late night thoughts 1:17am.

My mind fails to mirror the stillness of the environment. I’m running a marathon in my head but what exactly is the prize?Wondering, wishing, hoping that things look up.My knees flat on this cold floor and my hands together I’m praying.My deepest fears and my biggest concerns are being sent into the universe and I …

3 Letters

Baby is this the part where you ghost me?The part where my love sinks into oblivion?The part where everyone tells me oh no girl it’s not you it’s him.The part where I wonder and yearn for closure?But closure where?I ask myself how can I find it in you?One last text, one last phone conversation, one …

Sigh

I feel as if I am a fish swimming against the current.A lone body caught in the riptide of the tumultuous sea, floating further and further out until I am seen no more…Fighting for my life but I haven’t moved a muscle from this chair I am glued to.A thousand yard stare as the world, …

A Tear for When

A tear for when you said I love you A tear for when I said it back A tear for when you wrapped your whole body and soul around me. When everybody else would just call it a hug. A tear for when our hands found each other like a beacon for a ship at …

Scattered

I am Broken, like a vase shattered. Glass shards scattered. Sharp. Dull. Tiny. Large. Invisible. The cuts are minute, But the pain is mighty. Blood is drawn, it drips and stains. I try my best to clean up. Tears fall rapidly, the saltiness mixes with the crimson red. I pick up the pieces Glue, paste, …

Time

60 seconds in a minute 3600 seconds in an hour 86400 seconds in a day Time just seems to slip away. I thought I had all the time in the world with you, Until your time ended. While the world's kept going. The time I thought I had fell out of my hands like water, …

Keep Going

I whisper to myself, "Keep going" Battered and bruised emotionally, My past experiences cut me Like a sword. Learned habits are hard to Break. Learned behaviors are hard to Erase. Keep going This life is like a marathon. Have I reached my finish line? Where is my endurance? Where is my strength? I have to …

A Desperate Prayer

I get on my knees and pray, To a god that I'm not sure is there. Words repeated night after night Tears shed day after day. Emotions raw, And wounds that time has yet to heal. My words bounce off of these four walls. If they could talk, What would they say? Hands clasped together, …

The Funeral

Life as Olivia

please attend this funeral, so I can lay my pain to rest

the pallbearers are my new experiences and the mourners are my new attitude

drop drop several tears down the cheek

sniffles and muffled cries are the only thing I hear

the weather is gloomy, the ground muddy

don’t wear your new shoes, it may get a little dirty

wear black I say.  ladies, cover your face with a veil

so your face will be shielded, as they bury my pain away.

12 feet under the ground, 6 feet extra just to make sure

that the negativity, the doubts, and the cries all go away.

I look up at the sky as the rain paints my face

rain rain, please don’t go away.

Wash me, wash me to a better place.

The flowers around me are dead, brown and shriveled

but they do not take my joy away.

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Numbers

I haven't cried in 7 days And my last smile was about an hour ago. Is this what it feels like to be normal? Close my eyes and count to 10 1, 2, 3.. My mind begins to melt Into a puddle of happiness, sadness, anger, and disgust. With every memory that comes flooding back. …